Only Belive! By Luz Cintrón March 5, 2006 Web Site:http://www.thepearlsofwisdom.net

 
 

 
 
 

Faith is like a journey and it starts at the door of God’s heart. I saw it. There was a door opened before me, while I was still standing in the dark and there was light and bright fall colors of luscious foliage, that could be glimpsed though not yet seen through the opening of that door. Over there was as far as I could sense, the goodness of the Lord spread as wide as a valley, extended unto us. I knew as I was standing there, that behind those doors waited the answer to every pain, every affliction, every sickness, every difficulty just to be taken by the one who believed.

 

Oh how deeply I long for it! To be able to look into it, to behold it, to move there and live in it. I know I don't have to go to heaven to move there and live in it. His goodness was shown to me, reaching out like an invitation with just one single requisite that bore me naked…. “Only Believe!”

 

It bore me naked because I understood with just those two words the very nature, the very essence of what is to be our relationship with Him. Faith. I understood too well. How can I say I am a believer and that I love and believe Him if inside of me fear grabs a hold and taints everything? My mind still was apprehending that in Him all is met and not only that, but His willingness is always extended on our behalf, for our best, if I just trust Him, but see? That is exactly the center of my problem. I don't. Trust that don't trust in adversity is not trust.

 

It is an old problem for it is exactly what happened to Eve. She believed the lie of satan, she believed He had not our best in mind and ate the lie. Don't I eat the same fruit every day? Don't I pray from my fears, trying to convince Him of something He already wants to do? I was not created as a creature of knowledge, I am still not a creature of knowledge for if I could hold knowledge I would understand His ways and the choices to manifest or to hide Himself for me on from His side. He is all knowing.

 

When I saw my fear and how it colors even my prayers of “faith” I started to understand what faith was. All within me cried out for it,  very much like the man by the pool, unable even to throw myself into the pool of grace extended before me.

 

How can I say I love Him and believe Him when I fear He will not hear me, or worse yet that He will take everything away from me and inflict pain and even abandon me? Why am I so fast to adjudicate pain to Him when He has done everything to bear it for me and have carried my sorrows? What a sorry picture was revealed within my heart. How deep my lack of understanding, in truth and with my heart. His love is truly patient, as patient as determined, to use all for my benefit, even the things the enemy use to destroy me. How can anyone please Him without faith? If I would have loved and spent myself on behalf of a friend and then I see that my friend not only don't trust me but fears that I am out to cause him loss and pain, how deeply would I hurt? That is exactly how we relate to Him when we try to earn His graces. That is exactly the core of the problem, the root of fear within me.

 

It is not about earning but of accepting, of knowing Him as He is and trusting Him in all and through all. Our trust on Him then will be the target of the hordes of hell, to kill our trust through fear, to see if we trust Him still when all goes against us. Wasn't it like that to our beloved Savior at the cross? Wasn't all in this world set against Him to the point of pain, sorrow and death like we have not seen before or after?  Are we not to walk  like Him that in all the fire thrown on our path by the enemy, our faith like gold becomes more radiant through them? He is faithful and worthy to be trusted. "Only Believe" was not the plead but the command of Deep calling unto deep.

 

Your servant in His love,

luz

  

 

Jesus saith unto her, Said I not unto thee, that, if thou wouldest believe, thou shouldest see the glory of God?

John 11:40

 

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Jeremiah 29:11

 

For my thoughts [are] not your thoughts, neither [are] your ways my ways, saith the LORD.

For [as] the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper [in the thing] whereto I sent it.

For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap [their] hands.

 

Isaiah 55:8-12

 

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.

Romans 8:28

 

He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

 

Romans 8:32

 

 

That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:

 

1Peter 1:7